have you ever had the opportunity to buy a doll that you have been really wanting for a while... and then just... not buy it? this is a recurring issue for me.
last night I found a doll I had been really wanting, on ebay, for the price I was willing to pay, which is much lower than the going rate. I hemmed and hawed, and someone else bought it 3 hours after I went to sleep.
while I am disappointed that I didn't get the doll, I am more disappointed in myself. I feel like my low sense of self-worth is an unsurmountable obstacle.